Monday, May 28, 2012

The Adoption Rollercoaster

I've heard that the adoption journey is a lot like a roller coaster when it comes to your emotions....lots of ups and downs.  To be honest, up until now we haven't really felt that.  We rushed around at the beginning and got a lot of paperwork together, had meetings, appointments and small trips to get our dossier ready to be submitted to Africa.  Last July most all of that was sent off and our paperwork has been in Africa since October 2011.  Since October we made a trip to St. Louis in December to get some fingerprints done...and since December we've been waiting.  I guess it's like waiting in line to get on the roller coaster.  We can see others riding the ride and even some that have made it through the ride. 

About 2 weeks ago we got word that there was going to be a match meeting in Lesotho.  Then a day before the meeting it was confirmed by our agency that, YES there would be a meeting on May 22, 2012 and our paperwork would be at that meeting!  This was great news...this was..."okay Flora's it's your turn to get on this ride!"  After the meeting took place I couldn't sleep and my mind was consumed with what might have happened thousands of miles away.  Then on May 24th we found out that we hadn't been matched.  (I didn't even know that was a possibility!...rookie mistake)  Anyways, needless to say it was so disappointing and we were very upset. 

I guess over the last week I've learned that I'd rather be on the ride than on the sidelines waiting in line.  Last week was the most movement we have seen in quite a few months and it's the closest we have been to having a baby Flora miles away.  Jason and I are hanging in there and are incredibly thankful for the support we've experienced through our family, friends and coworkers.  They say "it takes a village to raise a child"...apparently it takes another one to bring one home from half way across the world.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Last Month Rewind...

I guess it hasn't quite been a month...(hey, I'm not doing too bad!)...but here is a little of what went on:
Eric Church Concert:

Jay and I went to the Eric Church/Brantley Gilbert concert!  It was Jason's first concert and although he stood with his arms crossed and looked more like a security guard than a fan....I think he liked it :)

Celebrating Moms!:
Mother's Day is tomorrow and my mom is out of town so we celebrated her day last weekend.  We went to a tea room for lunch and then out for pedicures.  It was an incredibly tiny gesture to say thank you for EVERYTHING you do in our lives EVERY day.  My other Mom is thousands of miles away but I still celebrate Jason's special momma.  His family gets back from Africa, one month from yesterday and we are so excited to see them.  Please know, Teresa, even though we aren't together on Mother's Day that we are thinking and praising the Lord for you!

Adoption Home-front:
April came and went with no match meeting in Lesotho.  We know of a couple that is over in Africa right now picking up their exciting!  I woke up at 6 am (on a Saturday! why?) and read through their blog this morning and it just seems so surreal.  I can't wrap my head around actually doing what they are doing right now.  I know it will come.  We are hoping...and praying that maybe this month a meeting will take place.  I can't help but wonder what that day will look like.  Will we be at work?  Will I just open and email and see a picture? Where will Jason be? Is it a boy? A girl? What emotions will we feel? ....Crazy to think about.